I am guessing that some of you have struggled with your own doubts. I am naturally a "glass half full" girl, so when the darkness of doubt rolls in like the fog from the sea, it shakes me a bit. What do I truly believe?
Here is what I think. I think we struggle with unbelief, I struggle...because of fear. The opposite of unbelief is ...yes, belief. Belief is defined as "confidence, faith, trust". Why do we choose not to have confidence or faith in God? I think the only answer is fear.
I know some of you fear God's punishment, believing Him to be harsh. Some of you fear being "found out", as if we could hide from God (yes, Adam and Eve already tried that one). Some fear the unknown. You know what I struggle with sometimes? I fear being over looked by God. Crazy, I know. Completely not biblical or true. But that is how fear works, it feeds you a lie and you choose to believe it.
And there it is. We believe a lie instead of God. The result: unbelief in the One that can be believed, doubting His character.
If you are in a place of doubt, I challenge you (beg you) to ask God what lie you are choosing to believe. The lie I have believed? That Christ is not enough. That somehow to be "whole" or "complete" I need something of this world to fulfill me.
We sang a song in church this weekend with a line that says, "I lift my hands to believe again...You are faithful God forever". So I choose to lift my hands, to believe again, to not fear. Not to believe the lie, but to believe God. And there goes the doubt, fear being replaced with faith. He is always at work in my life even when I cannot see it, this I know is true. This I believe.
