I also confessed that fear has stopped me from blogging. The Lord has forgiven me for choosing fear and by faith I sit again at my computer, waiting to see what the Lord has to say today. When I start my time with the Lord, I start with a prayer asking Him to meet with me and then I turn on music. I usually choose a "suggested" playlist of worship music, then ask the Lord to give me a song to focus my thoughts on Him.
Today, the first song was "Weep With Me" by Rend Collective. I was about to skip it, the sound is a little melancholy. However, I decided to listen. The third line is "I don't need answers, all I need to know is that you care for me...Lord I will wrestle with your heart but I won't let You go." (deep breath)
There you go, it is okay not to have answers (always). Some things we will release to the unknown. We choose to trust that God cares for us and rest in that truth. Yet, some things may be worth wrestling for. I am now content in having more questions than answers. How about you? Can you rest in not having the answer you desire? And if you are still restless will you persevere in seeking God, waiting for His answer? (Genesis 32:26)
We went to Canada this last weekend and toured the Parliament. This stained glass window "happened" to catch my attention (happened in quotes, since I am thinking there is purpose in every detail...another blog!). It says, "Great effects come of industry and perseverance."
I believe as we persevere in seeking God, He will allow us to be content in the unknown, or He will call us to persevere until He "answers" us. Either way, there is a "great effect." We will be closer to His heart, and isn't that our true longing? Ask away dear one, more questions than answers, what a good place to rest.